Strength, Courage & Wisdom

So I like youtube..... I'll randomly click on links for about an hour, share some on facebook you know, the regular stuff. Recently though I've been stumbling over stuff that resurrect some major memories. You know the songs that you used to know every word to and sing over and over again to entertain yourself to when doing boring stuff (long before ipods and music phones and even discmans come to think of it), well that's the type of stuff that I've been finding randomly on youtube, the soundtract to my life.
I've noticed something while doing this though. Anyone who knows me will think it amazing that I think this amazing but.... my life is kinda weird, a little crazy, very funny but mostly weird. I could just imagine my friends now laughing at my "Eureka moment" at something they've known for years. I am a very unusual person. White Town's "I Could Never Be Your Woman" can send me in to raptures



Jill Scott's live tribute to her band in " Fatback Taffy" puts me in glee. Stumbling over some amazing underground artist will guarantee that I don't shut up for days extolling their virtues to everyone who will still tolerate my music rants enough to endure it and yes people I will share EVERY version of K'naan's "Waving Flag" that I find on facebook. Get over it.

Strange thing is I was listening to India Arie today (that's not so strange) on my usual youtube jaunt and I played "Strength, Courage & Wisdom" for the millionth time ( still... not strange) and I just burst in to tears (Eureka!) and could not stop (Bazzinga!- i love Sheldon!)

Granted I've been having a bit of a tough time so very little is taken to make me cry but it was the idea that I was strong, courageous and wise that took hold and refused to leave. And I'm glad it did.

I don't have to be like Don Quijote, fighting windmills, or like the Lion in the Wizard of Oz. I just had to believe. God put it there so... its there. FULL STOP! I need to stop looking externally for something that was always in me as the song says all along.

I like the feel of that thought dancing around in my mind. I like the taste of it as it rolls off my tongue. I'm strong, I'm courageous, I'm wise.

Are you?